I miss her so much

04 March 2004 || 4:51 pm

We keep getting mail for my mother. Today we got a check from the fucking oncology office because of a copay that was made. The FUCKING ONCOLOGY OFFICE.

I miss my mother more every day, my father and I never talk about her, and I can't stop crying. Right now I have my period, I feel sick, I'm really pissed off at several FUCKING STUPID people, I have way too much to do this month, I won't get any time to myself, and I just wish I could die.

If only to see my mom again, just once more. But it will never happen again. ever ever ever... Oh god, I miss her so much.

My father's never home, I have to bum rides everywhere, I don't know what I'm going to do in the future...

I hate being alive...

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